Whoops…I totally just ate about $6.75 worth of cherries in one sitting. Sadly though, it wasn’t that many cherries. Ah, well… at least they weren’t Skittles. I mean, I’d be okay with that…but my jeans wouldn’t.
I’ve had some writer’s block since my vacation. I can’t tell if I’m just in a different state of mind and I can’t really get back to where I was before taking a couple of weeks off… or maybe I’m just out of things to write about right now. Don’t get me wrong, it’s not like my life is picture-perfect right now, it’s actually just really, really boring. Plus, I’m still dealing with a lot of the same emotions I’ve been writing about, but I know that people don’t want to read about the same things over and over again.
I’m ready to move forward. Maybe talking about it and actually putting it into words will bring this idea into existence and I can act on it. So, move forward in what, you ask? Well, that’s easy – pretty much everything. I mean, there will be a few things I want to stay the same like family, friends, and my job. But bigger picture things need to change…tout suite! (That saying is ridiculous to me…but just ridiculous enough that I had to use it.)
Obviously, the first thing that probably came to your mind when I said I’m ready to move forward was a maaann, right? Well, you are right, of course. I don’t want to be that crazy, old single, cat lady for-ev-er! I know to those that haven’t been in the close circle of knowing all the drama going on in my life for the past few years, it may seem like I’m “moving on” rather quickly. But, I’m here to tell you that I’ve been single (without the label) for a long time now. It’s just become official/titled/public knowledge in the past few months. I’m not talking about jumping in with both feet into a long-term committed relationship, per say, but I just want to have some fun, meet some new guys, and see what’s out there. That’s okay, right? Well, I’m telling you. It’s okay!
Also, I’m really thinking about my career. What do I see myself doing at say, 45? 55? What do I want to retire from? I love my job now, and have no plans of leaving any time soon…but do I want to work in a private practice forever? Maybe. I can always go back to graduate school, move into more of a speech therapist role that I intended on going into. I love what I do now, and I know I want to care for people and change lives for the rest of my life, but I just don’t quite know in what avenue yet.
Of course, there are other things I want to start making plans on moving forward with. Where do I want to live? I could move anywhere right now…well, not literally right now. A girl’s gotta plan it out and wait until her lease is up…but then, I could move anywhere! Denver? Portland? East Coast? Austin? We could get really crazy and talk about over-seas living. Say whaat? I know I could really go for a new man with an accent…yow-za. (Yep, I just used yowza…handle it.)
Lots of things on my mind tonight, but it feels good to get in the groove of letting some of it out here in this space. Oh, and I feel like I haven’t said it in a while, but thanks again for all the support with this blog!! It is so encouraging to know that people actually read some of it, and (maybe?) look forward to my ramblings. Love you guys!