Yes, this is going to be the typical blog post about love. Maybe it will be sappy…maybe mushy or cheesy, but whatever the adjectives are that end up perfectly describing this blog post, I hope one among them will be real. I don’t know how this post is going to turn out, sometimes I have a big picture idea in mind for a post…other times are like tonight. I warned you!
It’s been a fun night hanging out with friends, including overpriced margaritas and quesadillas, which leads me to coming home at 11:30 and deciding it’s the perfect time to finish a bottle of wine and watch The Notebook. (Please note, I’ve later decided that it is not the perfect time to watch The Notebook, of all movies I could have chosen, and especially not with a half-full bottle of wine). If I decide to “publish” this post…which there is no telling, but if you’re reading it, then I guess my decision was obvious, but if I do, please do not judge this post for my fantastical ideas of love/relationships, just appreciate my thoughts (though you can always tell me how much you love them… 🙂 ), and then let them influence you as they may, a lot or nothing at all.
Gosh…that scene in this movie with the ocean… I fall for it every time. You know the scene: “Say you’re a bird.” “If you’re a bird, I’m a bird.” AH. I love this movie.
PS. Super excited that I just figured out how to embed a Youtube video into this post. (Go me!)
Anyway, back to the good stuff. So, yes, I’ve said before that I’m feeling more comfortable with the idea of dating someone again. But, this whole dating world is so different, especially 1) as an adult and 2) with all of this technology! I know, I sound like an old lady…but they barely had texting when I last dated! I am a dinosaur.
I mean, I think I can manage with the whole texting, Skype, Facetime, iMessage, whatever else kind of communication I’ll encounter when talking to new people, but this whole adult thing? I am not prepared for that. I mean, how does one just “unload” all of their past baggage onto another person and expect them to not run away screaming? Sure, you do it slowly… not all at once, but the thought of it just seems overwhelming. I guess that’s part of love? The blindness that occurs when people start to fall into that honeymoon, “you hung the moon”, you’re my one and only, etc.
Oh, don’t worry… just bawling my eyes out currently. “Why didn’t you write me?” Yeah, Noah… why didn’t you write her? Oh wait, you did!? (Hang in there, fragile heart of mine!)
Okay, fully recovered now, only the occasional sniffling. Where was I? Oh yes, the daunting idea of dating. Yech… I don’t really like to even think about it, it makes me so nervous. I mean, how do you even find someone? Yes, yes, there is online dating. But, I just can’t seem to wrap my mind around it yet, for myself at least. I know it’s been proven successful, and I even have several close friends that have amazing relationships with someone they met through various websites. But me? I just have too much to say, (I mean, clearly… I write a blog now), and I can’t really pin down my wants and needs into a single paragraph or chose the right photo that hides all my flaws and accentuates the good things. Nope, not for me right now. Maybe in the future?
As for the other avenues, well the options are…limited. Yes, there are bars, (no thank you…the clientele I’ve met is…less than ideal), and of course, there is church. But honestly, the options that I’ve met there are very limited as well. The singles classes are mostly female, and I feel like it’s just like the Hunger Games trying to get the attention of the few single men in whatever group I’m in. (No thank you…I’ll pass.) So, friends of mine… time to step up to the plate and find some normal single guys for this lady! Haha, just kidding…but no, really.
Well, I’ve reached the end of my movie… I made it through! A beautiful, happy ending for Noah and Allie, one that I can hope for one day for myself. Okay, preferably not the Alzheimer’s part and having to listen to the same story every day, but yes to the part about having a true love that you get to spend your entire life with…literally to the very end. Sigh. One day I will have that, one day. Until then, this movie will have to do, but I’m okay with that for now. (Get on it, friends!) 🙂