Life is a busy thing. I’ll be honest, for the past two weeks I’ve felt as if I’ve been playing catch up, never able to fully feel like I was in control of my life. I’d wake up stressed about one thing or another, running late to work and spending the rest of the day putting out fires as they popped up. I’d sleep late instead of getting up early to run. I’d eat junk in place of healthy foods, soda for water, etc. It’s like I just went right back to my old habits…I just couldn’t figure out why. I think I didn’t want to know why.
I also stopped writing. I felt so out of control with my emotions, I just shut them off for a couple of weeks. I didn’t even want to acknowledge they existed, so therefore I couldn’t write about them. It wasn’t even like they were all negative thoughts, they just were so unpredictable I thought I’d come off crazy, haha well, even more crazy. It’s strange when you start to spiral downward, you don’t even realize it really until you’ve opened your eyes, looked around, and realized you’ve just been absent from life. All the insecurities start to creep back in, you return to your old, comfortable habits, and wonder why you’re not happy.
Well, I’m awake.
I’m running 3-4 miles a day, eating better, staying positive, and trying to actually work through all of these crazy, random emotions. There’s new goals I’ve set, new priorities I’m making, and new adventures just waiting around the corner…and I can’t wait to share them all.
Thanks for all the love and support!! During the hard times, I usually go back and read sweet comments and messages I receive on here and it cheers me up. Seriously, I wouldn’t know what to do without this outlet, so again, thank you for reading! Many funny, embarrassing, honest, and encouraging posts to come!