Did you miss me?

Hey!

I’m back!

‘Old-school’ journal writing just wasn’t cutting it for me anymore, so after much deliberation- I’ve returned to try and entertain you as I shamelessly document the antics of my life on the internet once again.

It’s been a few months shy of 2 years since I left the blogging world and jeez, life has flown by. Like, crazy-scary time-warp-speed flown by. Let’s take some time to get re-acquainted again, shall we? I think some general life updates are in order before I endlessly spew my emotions out a few times a week on here…you know, just so you have a point of reference.

I’m assuming/hoping there will be some new readers to this blog and if that’s you- HI! Feel free to browse my past entries, they include lots of embarrassing and (I think) funny stories about all of the misadventures after my divorce. A couple of my favorites are this one and also this one.

Big Picture Items

  • Still live in Dallas, although now with a significant other and a fur-child (more on that in a minute)
  • About to turn freaking THIRTY in May- and no, I’m not looking forward to it and I’m slightly terrified
  • Lots of changes are happening currently, figured it’s as good a time as any to write about all of it, right?

Relationship Update

  • Still with the ginger from Tinder! (He may also be referred to within this blog as Matt/Matthew/boo thang/beard man/etc.) If you’re new around here and interested, you can read more about how our relationship started and the dating roller coaster in my previous entries, but we are just as happy as ever and recently added a dog to our little family! Welcome to your fur-ever home, Nessa!

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Work Life

  • I’ve been working in a major hospital system for the past two years on the administrative side in the Plastic Surgery department, but as of TODAY (woo!) I am now a Practice Administrator for a cognitive behavior therapy practice here just about a mile from our place. I’ll probably post more about this scary leap in the coming weeks as I start my new adventure on Monday. (Wish me luck!)

Healthy/Not-so-healthy life

  • Well, I’m not gonna deny it. I’ve let life take priority and in turn let my attempt at a ‘healthy food and plenty of exercise’ lifestyle fall to the wayside. I’ve definitely gained some weight back. Call it being happy, call it laziness…whatever- the point is, I’m not happy about it. I think part of me hopes that this blog will be a bit of an accountability partner, but mainly I just need to get off my ass and get moving again.
  • Anxiety is something I struggle with still on a daily basis. It’s not as unmanageable as it used to be, but I’m sure I’ll vent from time to time as it rears it’s ugly head. I’m looking forward to working in a mental health career field that I’m passionate about and growing to become a representative in the community. Mental health issues are real. It’s not something that’s attention-seeking, nor something that should be used to shame the people suffering from them. I’ve watched it affect so many loved ones in my life, and I’m determined to play a role in the destigmatization of the issue.

 

Well then, I think I’ve fully reintegrated all of you into where my life is currently. While others are counting down until their wedding, the birth of their child, or their next vacation…let’s begin my countdown to none of those celebratory reasons. Instead, I’ll be turning 30 in:

126 days
lord help me, I’m gonna be an old lady…

 

Priorities

Life is a busy thing. I’ll be honest, for the past two weeks I’ve felt as if I’ve been playing catch up, never able to fully feel like I was in control of my life. I’d wake up stressed about one thing or another, running late to work and spending the rest of the day putting out fires as they popped up. I’d sleep late instead of getting up early to run. I’d eat junk in place of healthy foods, soda for water, etc. It’s like I just went right back to my old habits…I just couldn’t figure out why. I think I didn’t want to know why.

I also stopped writing. I felt so out of control with my emotions, I just shut them off for a couple of weeks. I didn’t even want to acknowledge they existed, so therefore I couldn’t write about them. It wasn’t even like they were all negative thoughts, they just were so unpredictable I thought I’d come off crazy, haha well, even more crazy. It’s strange when you start to spiral downward, you don’t even realize it really until you’ve opened your eyes, looked around, and realized you’ve just been absent from life. All the insecurities start to creep back in, you return to your old, comfortable habits, and wonder why you’re not happy.

Well, I’m awake.

I’m running 3-4 miles a day, eating better, staying positive, and trying to actually work through all of these crazy, random emotions. There’s new goals I’ve set, new priorities I’m making, and new adventures just waiting around the corner…and I can’t wait to share them all.

Thanks for all the love and support!! During the hard times, I usually go back and read sweet comments and messages I receive on here and it cheers me up. Seriously, I wouldn’t know what to do without this outlet, so again, thank you for reading! Many funny, embarrassing, honest, and encouraging posts to come!